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hi.

it's tiring for me to post about my mental breakdown, again and again and again.

but, I couldn't help feeling sad and broken, again and again.

it's tiring to cry over things, that I know I have control of.

But, I---choose to feel that and drown myself in that particular moment.

For a moment, I wonder why I was sad.

I know the reasons, though.

But, I couldn't tell it to others. Maybe thats the reason why it hurts more.

I am praying, I will get over it. Even if it takes me years.

I just want to feel happy. I want to be me again.

Without sudden urge of crying.

I want to smile, and feel good about it.