25th

 

25th.

So, I bet most of us thought that you supposed to have your life sort when you’re twenty five.

Reality check, I don’t have my life sorted. Or even have any detailed plan for future. I don’t know if I am living my life or barely surviving, but I promise me to be better Shasha every year.

God knows, how much I wanted to end me. How much I loathed myself because I felt that I am not good enough. I survived those emotions and made it to 25! May I survived whatever lies in my future. 

To my parents, I could never repay them even if I live a long life, but I hope I make them happy so far. No doubt, I am a handful to handle 😂😂😂

But, they made it 🤪. 

To my people who accept and loving me since day 1, thank you?! I don’t know if I have expressed enough feelings to you guys, but really I am thankful to know and to spend times with you guys 🤪❤️. 

I don’t know if life could be any messier, but I promise me to hell or high water, and even if the world is against me, I will never against myself.

As much as I am grateful that I have strong support systems; family and friends, I am super grateful that I have me and I love myself more than I ever thought I would.

Happy Birthday, Shasha Syafiqah! You made it this far, sure you’ll get through everything else too! 💜🥰❤️ Thank you for surviving, I hope you’ll start living, soon! You are blessed and you are enough. You been writing long ass letters to everyone else, but yourself. So, this one is for you on your 25th birthday! 😘🙆🏻‍♀️.

Thank you for the doa, and I pray the same for everyone, too 🌸💜.